The heart is in a cocoon, still broken.

I couldn't stand it anymore, I was so tired I wanted to get down and not get up, but my mom left a message: let me live, my mom knew I'd have this day.

My physical disability can be overcome ...... but the mistrust that regular people have of me can never be overcome ...... neither can my family ...... Since I was a child, I've had one consideration "No one can help me!" So "stingy" to the family also use my hot face to stick to the parents of the cold ass ...... learned Chinese medicine, this card that card, so that the practice of medicine of the good road into a difficult ...... married a daughter-in-law parents do not care, I pay since the I don't want my children to be helpless and not have children, I don't want my children to be like me and not have children ...... Two words to fear ......

The villain of the world set up a "cure for the disease section" dark sun wasted you ...... the first half of life as a dream like a fan! If you say that this is like a dream, every thing in advance beforehand and then remembered as a dream ...... results like a game of chess like speechless, now visible, the disability so that people do not go back to the divergent, powerless and so that people look at the eyes of no relatives ...... kindness so that people have no class from the... ... young no one to help me, do not want to seek to steal life under the steps, is born alone to end old age, no relatives and no support in old age ......

The most painful day is the leadership asked me to "cure the disease department" so unethical, tasteless, boring things ......

I'm glad to answer your question, I went through the most difficult time. In 2013. Really poor at that time. Had no money. Didn't even have money to buy a 50 cent pineapple. Plus pregnant at that time. I'm a glutton for punishment. But I had no choice, I was poor!
So hard to go through October's pregnancy. Painful struggle. Went through the opening of ten fingers. All the pain. Gave birth to a daughter. But he only stayed in this world for less than two months. He left me. It was really a bolt from the blue. I can't describe it. The sadness and pain in my heart. Only I know. No one else can understand. After that time, I had a lot of complaints about myself. I blame myself for what? So much carelessness. Blame myself for being so irresponsible. I blame myself for being so resilient and grumpy. Frequent nightmares about my daughter. Dreaming that he didn't leave me. Instead, growing up in another place. And so it was. , after a full two years, I came out of it. Two years later I got pregnant again. Another daughter was born. From then on I became careful. I had to do everything myself. I want all baby moms to be responsible for their babies. We give more love and care. Accompany them to grow up happily. Thanks for reading my heart.

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@Yuomi Nakago It's all tears when I talk about it! When you are still young, sixteen years old, can not do anything, because the father paralyzed, had no choice but to go to school, my brother and I separated from the family.
A person who can't do anything, in the countryside, in those days, where there was work to do, or when you had to carry water to eat, you couldn't even carry water.
Once someone said this to your face, who dares to care about you, with your people, you have no strength, with your money, you have no money, human sadness and warmth, sweetness and bitterness know themselves. Pocket fifty dollars or borrowed, buy salt buy pesticides and fertilizers are owed.
No oxen, no tools, just hard work, night and day.
Luckily, I have a car and a house now, and I'm doing okay, I guess!
Yumi Nakago would like to say, be good to yourself and to hell with the gossip! We are not afraid of suffering, as long as we are upright and have a clear conscience!

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Wife bails out twice, finally delivers baby five days past due date

The hardest time I went through would have to be senior year!

Senior ah, because to the college entrance examination, of course, is also learning a lot of pressure, one side of the effort, there is a side to face the parents and teachers of the stern Guo also have to choose. Senior, that time is really difficult, every day to do a lot of questions, but also because it is a science student so most of them have to use their brains, the most afraid of is physics, originally IQ is not high, but also every day around the physics of those who want to adhere to, and then say biology! Although biology is a science in the arts but I do not like it, can not raise too much interest, but in order to achieve or the hard head on the math and chemistry is okay, quite like math and chemistry da. Then it is the language, the language is not much pressure, followed by English, English foundation is not good English teacher put me as the focus of observation, every day forced me to how so and so, but also listen to the parents next to say, your grades are too bad!

Well, actually I know all that. But it's really hard and stressful!

I remember that year, my family had no money to pay for my schooling, so I had to follow my family to work. It was a stationery factory, I was arranged in the production workshop, the need for two shifts, respectively, from 6:00 am to 12:00 pm, the night of 0:00 pm to 6:00 pm, especially this shift at night, did not stay up all night I sleepy almost fainted. I had no choice but to take responsibility at a young age. Just stayed up and did not dare to resign, it was not easy to find a job ah, every company has a good position is the first internal digestion, outside the people are very difficult to enter.

I thought it was already the hardest time, but I didn't realize that one of the foremen in the workshop suddenly fell in love with me, which made me embarrassed at that time ah, my father worked in the workshop? My father worked in the workshop, and my family was very strict, and I was not allowed to talk to boys, let alone fall in love, so I was sure to be beaten up. This thing in my polite refusal, did not let my father found, the results of one day, and another boy met in the stairway, he was cheap towards me and my sister flirted with a few words, just like my boy saw, this time it is not allowed, the disease committed, the two people on the dry, you say dry on the dry, the two people to fight forget it, this is not the two people have to clamor, have to call on their social friends, pulling They had to call their social friends and pull a van full of people to fight. I was scared to death.

Fortunately, the last did not dry up, or I would have sinned, although the frame did not fight, but this has been spread in the factory, the boss immediately called my father up, my father is the director of the workshop, the foreman and I belong to his jurisdiction, so the upper leadership to find him to ask for punishment, when my father knew that this is what we caused, the fire rubbed up, to the workshop brush to my sister to a slap, he thought it was my sister, because usually I look more well-behaved, my sister is more lively and extroverted, so I did not think to give my sister to take the blame for this. Sister, because usually I look more well-behaved, my sister is more lively and outgoing, so I did not think about it to my sister back on this black pot, when the workshop which, my sister heart that aggrieved ah. Tears bar bar drop, but still suppressed, when off work and I said she wanted to leave home, I was scared by the idea of her at a loss, originally the social experience is not enough, the hand also has no money. How can you live away from home?

But this thing is my fault (although I am also very innocent) my sister to me took the blame, the heart has been guilty of not, in letting her go out alone to fend for herself, I really can not bear it, in the meantime I would like to simply and my father confessed, so that my sister to put an end to the idea, but my sister is determined to go, she also do not want me to tell the truth, to say that out of the slap on the face of her will be in vain, and back to the I'm still going to be beaten, so let's forget it. Let's just leave it at that.

I thought about it for a night, and finally decided to take my sister with me to run away from home. I remember the day I decided to leave, it was still drizzling, I carefully took a few pieces of clothes with me little by little, I didn't dare to take too much for fear of being found by the security guards, and took my sister on a motorcycle just like that.

I took my sister to join a friend of mine, because the two people only have more than a hundred dollars on the body, coupled with the absence of ID cards on the go, so there is an urgent need to find a job, but at that time the factories over there are too inhumane, even to the end of the year to pay wages, he is not a monthly payroll, but a year to year, only in the New Year's holidays when the payroll, but each month you can borrow the cost of living, there is no way to do, in order to Live, can only make do, the factory life is very busy, often overtime to the breakfast store downstairs are open, to drag the tired body back to rest, resting place perennial rats scurrying, the room is partitioned with wooden boards, even there is no water! You have to carry water back from the factory yourself, and you have to go to the workplace to take a shower and use the restroom!!!! Fortunately, my sister's job is at my friend's place, and the work is relatively easy, and the living environment is slightly better, which makes up for a little bit of guilt in my heart.

The first time I left home, with the idea that I would be without my family forever, every time I think about it, the tears turn in my heart and I fall asleep before I can get them out. I was so tired. I didn't realize that people were so resilient that they could survive in that environment.

On the contrary, my sister is living a very nourishing job is relatively easy to leave my father, no one can control her, every day after work are running out to play, I am worried and troubled, afraid that she went out in danger, afraid that she followed the bad friends to learn the bad, because I simply do not have time other than to sleep, and there is no way to understand what she went out in the end, that she did not listen, really afraid because I brought out to ruin her life, then a little bit of I was a little bit more understanding of her father's behavior at that time.

Thankfully, my dad found us later and apologized sincerely, and then we went home.

We humans are resilient. No matter how hard the days are, we will get through them. It seems like a long time ago, and then it seems like yesterday, always reminding me to cherish the life I have now.

The most difficult days in the south drifting. 93 years, no ID card, carrying brother-in-law lent me 150 yuan, followed the Jiangxi construction team crowded on the bus to Shenzhen. The first month of the cold teeth chattering, the middle of the night, my sister and I bought a jacket spread in the construction site on a temporary plank bed, curled up in a ball, cold to cry. Outside the security guards to check the three no people (no ID card, temporary residence permit, factory license), we are in the construction site has not been completed on the sixth floor, blowing out the candles, the atmosphere do not dare to come out, until below the ding dong dong ding dong knocking sound and the sound of boots far away only to breathe a sigh of relief, thankful that they did not come up to the sixth floor. Later with a girl's ID card to a photo studio in Jiangxi spend ten dollars to make a color a little darker exactly the same ID card, pay a deposit of 60 yuan into the village of Longhua Yaosong, a Hong Kong person opened a private electronic watch factory. I don't know how I survived at that time.

The hardest time was the exams, toughing it out. [Smiles]